Since I was crazy into weight loss at one point in my life. Hopefully returning there soon. I have a love/hate realtionship with the scale (who doesnt right?) Anyhow I officially weighed in Sunday night at 393.8 (EYE OPENER) Now when I started my journey last time I was about 380 to start....so I have gained back at least 113 pounds. I will not beat myself up over this! I really believe I had to gain this back because I did it for the wrong reasons last time around this weight loss has to be for my and my health. Not about anything else! Well I know I shouldnt step on that scale everyday but I do anyhow for now. This morning she read 388.0 YAYYYY! 5.8 pounds one day! So this post is thanking water weight as it falls off my body because I know these huge numbers will not keep up! I can be excited about this and know exactly what is happening since this is the second time around!
I can do this! I will do this! ONE STEP AT A TIME!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
One step at a time!
This journey is going to be a lifetime thing. I can not look at this in a time frame of expectations that can not be close to happening.
This weight will come off one step at a time. I have that tattoo on my foot reminding me constantly to take it as such. It might take years for me to get to goal but I WILL get there one day and I will look AMAZING!
My mental issues have come full circle this cycle of hating myself has to end NOW! I am an amazing person and I have someone in my corner who is reassuring me of that. Many family memebers and friends have always believed me in and I recently found out that my actions in the end blaming them for what I do to my self has to stop.
This is a new beginning, a fresh start. I will no longer hide behind emotions or feelings anymore. My time is now!
One day I will no longer be a heartbroken sweetheart and I am excited to see what life will feel like then.
One step at a time. : )
This weight will come off one step at a time. I have that tattoo on my foot reminding me constantly to take it as such. It might take years for me to get to goal but I WILL get there one day and I will look AMAZING!
My mental issues have come full circle this cycle of hating myself has to end NOW! I am an amazing person and I have someone in my corner who is reassuring me of that. Many family memebers and friends have always believed me in and I recently found out that my actions in the end blaming them for what I do to my self has to stop.
This is a new beginning, a fresh start. I will no longer hide behind emotions or feelings anymore. My time is now!
One day I will no longer be a heartbroken sweetheart and I am excited to see what life will feel like then.
One step at a time. : )
Monday, July 2, 2012
Choice
I have a choice to make. I can either do this or not. I don't want to live in between land anymore. I say daily I will start this again. I CAN do this. I HAVE to do this. I NEED to do this. Maybe a countdown isnt right for my journey. I need to give it as much time as it needs.
I am going to be the best version of myself thats who I was created to me. This starts today. This fight ends now.
It is time.
I am going to be the best version of myself thats who I was created to me. This starts today. This fight ends now.
It is time.
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