The beginning

So where to start....like I said before I have always been "heavy" but that doesnt mean I wasnt active in my life. I played softball when I was little, I played volleyball in Middle School and I was actually good. I also played softball in High School which to be honest I miss. I had never had a boyfriend besides your best friend one you know? Which im 25 now and we are still good friends...I had never been kissed (until Homecoming night in 2004 when I won Homecoming Queen (while wearing probably a size 22 I might add.) I was pretty popular in High School actually or what I thought was popular....I had friends from every group. Anyhow after High School I felt I couldnt afford College so I went and get a job. I started at a carlot and enjoyed what I did. I have been in the business ever since. Sometimes I regret it, not going to college that is...I do want to make more money (everyone does right?) I just connect that with happiness im not sure why. No boyfriend, Never been kissed, overweight, but tons of "friends"...thats where we left off. I do blame my weight gain on things that have happened in my life, I dont know if thats a good thing or not but I am a very emotional eater.

More to come...

Starting out

Well it is day 5 of my Adventure, I am down 10 pounds already. Usually by this time I am crabby and ready to kill anyone who mentions food. I am not sure why this time is different, I started taking St. Johns Wort for depression and I know it takes up to 6 weeks for that to work. I want these next 246 days (taking us to January 1st 2013) to go by fast. I am ready to get to ONEderland the land that I don't feel I have ever been in. I have been big for as long as I can remember always way bigger sizes then my friends which really gets to you after too long. I have alot of emotional issues that I will be going over on here later as I am sure my life story is a little much for a first post...maybe post 2 can be for that and all the drama I have been in that probably is my own fault most of the time.