Happy and sad.

138 pounds down in 153 days! = Happy

Still feeling worthless inside= Sad

You can start to look different, you can start to finally be able to look at the reflection in the mirror. But my inside feelings don't really change...they don't ever just go away. Why do the worthless feelings still fill my brain when I should be smiling every minute of the day.

I feel like a bitch....like a spoiled brat who has lived some amazing life getting whatever she wanted.....and today I feel like I have nothing. I want someone to want me. Someone to want to be around me. Someone who wont give up on me like all the others before.


I cant expect that though right? Why would anyone want to be with me when I feel worthless still.